A Court of Mist and Fury by Sarah J. Maas, Tamlin Locks Feyre Up and Mor Busts Her Out, Pt 3

0:00 Hey confessors, buckle up, you're about to hear episode 3 of our Court of Mist and Fury coverage. Feyre is spending a whole lot more time with Rhysand, and let's just say the Night Court is starting to feel dangerously like home.

0:41 Yes! At the gnarly tree. That poor girl. And then, like, at some point in this space when she's back at the Spring Court, this is where, like, she has the talons or something that are growing, and Lucien sees, and Lucien's like, Oh, okay. Yeah, it's shape-shifting. But still, but still, he does nothing. All he does is he asks her, hey, how long has that been a thing? She's like, I don't know, it just happened. Just right now, about 7 seconds ago. But he does actually— hold up. Yeah, he, he says, hey, how long has that been happening? She's like, oh, it just started. And I think that fuels him to say, okay, I'm gonna try again to approach Tamlin and get the training that you need. Obviously it's unsuccessful. I think he goes in and it's Tamlin and Nianthe in a room, and Lucien goes in, they close the door. Feyre's not allowed to be a part of that conversation, but she can hear it in the hallway.

1:44 There's a lot of conversations in this trip that she's not allowed to be part of. Yeah. And she literally just doesn't even care. Yeah. She's like, oh, I guess maybe Tamlin and Iante, something might be there, but meh, whatever. But when she became a Fade, didn't her hearing also get super, super strong too? Yeah, like she can hear from outside in the hallway, but she, like, to your point, Nacho, I think she gives up. Like, she doesn't care because she's just been beaten down so much that I saw it as her just like literally giving up. Yep, fuck it. You know, can't be in the room, it's fine. Yeah, literally don't care. The, the feet shuffling, for me, it's just like— it's the feet shuffling for me is more of an indicator than just shoulders down and head down or whatever. The feet shuffling, like, to not even— not that she didn't care, but she just didn't want to be aware of anything that was happening to the point that she didn't even want to pick her feet up off the Mm-hmm. Like, I don't know. The pitter-pattering. When she comes back that time and the shape-shifting and all that shit, and she hears that Tamlin is still not agreeing to let Lucien train her, um, is what leads us to that final straw for Feyre and Tamlin. And, um, again, you know, the day starts as any other where Tamlin's gonna go out and fucking, I don't know, fight beasts or God knows whatever the fuck he's doing out there, but she wants to go. She's like, I'm coming. Both of them armed up,

3:15 ready to rock and roll. And she's like, no, I'm coming. And she's trying to take a very firm stance here. I'm gonna go. I don't care what you say. I'm gonna go. I'm just gonna go. I'll sit on the— I'll be back behind, or I'll like, I'll go do whatever, you know? I'll do literally anything to get out of this fucking house. He's like, go paint, go for a ride. She's like, no, I'm fucking coming. And I think this is the scene where I have another voice memo running, is that Um, he tells her like, I can protect you from anything. Like, you don't need to be a part of this. I got you. I got you. And she's immediately like, no, you don't fucking got me. 'Cause you didn't have me with Amarantha. You sure shit ain't gonna be able to do it now. Right. And that's fueling her fight to say, I'm going. And I think she says, well, I'm gonna come anyways, whether or not you let me.

4:02 And he tells her, don't you even dare. Yep. And then walks out. Yes. Yep. And then Lucien is like, I'm gonna try to talk to her. And she's just like, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, I'm— I need to go. I need to get out of this house. Lucien is not that— like, get me out of this house. And then we get into like claustrophobia. Yeah, it's intense. And then Lucien's like, no, but really, no, but really, we're gonna— I'm, I'm gonna talk to him. And finally she's just like, your talking is not doing anything. Yeah. She's like, I'm fucking going. Watch me walk out this door. And she goes to walk and boom, slams into like a brick wall. She can't get out of the door. She can't get out of the windows. She's officially trapped in this house, and she fucking loses it.

4:47 Yeah. Like, the trigger of all triggers. She's back under the mountain. She's a prisoner. She somehow envelops herself in this black, shadowy mass that nobody else in the house, like Alice, can even penetrate through, get her. She is full-on, like, knees to chest, rocking, completely fucked. Yep. And she is essentially closing in on herself. It is an anxiety attack on crack, like the one of the worst kinds of anxiety attacks, the kind that just leave you shaking. I mean, I've had one. I've had a panic attack like that.

5:27 It's horrible. And it fucking pissed me off. Like, okay, nobody keeps baby in the house. Nobody. Like, no, it's baby. You fucking asshole. Yeah. But this leads us to the MVP of the motherfucking book. She can hear Alice. She can hear another voice. It's a female voice. And she feels these strong, beautiful, wonderful female hands come into her ball of fury and pick her up and take her out of the house. And she hears Alice say to that person, just get her out of here, keep her safe, or something like that. And all she— she is not— I don't think she's in her own body to realize who it is or what's happening, but it's Mor. Yes. Mor went into the house to get her because Rhysand could hear and feel that she was in danger. But because of their agreement, Rhysand cannot go in and take her unless it's their time of the month, which sounds like a period. He can't go and get her until it's his time, but he shatters her wards. He's on a separate land. He sends Mor in— Like in the Summer Court or something. Yeah, like Switzerland, like some neutral territory. And Mor brings her to Rhysand. There's a handoff again. Feyre is sort of in her own body, can't acknowledge what's happening, but she feels Rhysand. And she feels— there's like a little line there acknowledging that the shadows comfort her and— are stroking her and calming her down, and then she feels the cool air. And oh, and Mor— I love that Mor was like telling her, you're free, you're

7:00 free, you're safe, you're free, and like just kept talking her through that. But yeah, Rhysand takes her back to the Night Court and she fucking passes out. And when she wakes up again, that handsome motherfucker was just sitting there waiting for her to wake up. Yes. Hands in his pocket. Hands in his pocket, picking at some lint. But I love that. I love the way that was written. And yeah, fuck Tamlin. I mean, think about like any time in your life where something like that has happened, like how you would wish somebody would swoop in and take and make, make it all go away.

7:40 Make you feel protected. And make you feel protected. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, it's funny. I didn't, I didn't, uh, think of it as an anxiety attack, but I think that's why it, it hit so hard for me because of how, how that all worked out. Like, I just— yeah. It was PTSD wrapped in anxiety, which was— which is the worst. And how that, like, experience was explained and written by the author is sometimes how I feel, right? Like that loss of control, that overwhelming, I don't know, right? So I super resonated with that whole experience. I mean, clearly I don't have shadows and wind and fire, but like those things all felt or were explained. Like, I would use those ways to explain how my body feels when something like that happens. So I was super like— Yeah. I was crying 'cause I'm a hot mess express because she was so— she had finally hit, and we all know how much I love a roller coaster on a character. But she finally hit the bottom and she was done and that was it.

9:14 And, and then people who actually cared for her picked her up. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I, I loved, I loved, I loved Mor so much for that because I feel like when you are in that state of mind, she was saying all of the right things. Like she was making sure Feyre knew that she was finally free, that she was out, that she was safe. And then Feyre wakes up at the Night Court with Rhysand there, had been there by her side just to make sure everything was okay. And I love/hated how he told her, you know, you're welcome to stay here as long as you want, but if you want to go back, just say the word and I'll take you back. Yeah. And I hated that. Like, I think in that moment, I wanted him to be like, listen, bitch, I'll let you try it your way.

10:01 That shit didn't work out. You are not going back. But he didn't. He left that option open for her. Mm-hmm. Whenever you want to, if you ever want to, I'll take you back. But if not, don't worry, you can stay here. Again, giving her a choice, giving her agency over her own body. I feel like all of that leads us to like the actual story. I feel like this is when she starts to like look at Rhysand like not a monster. Yeah. You know, like, he, he is giving her a place to stay. He's becoming her safety net, I guess, or her safe space. Um, and like, right away she's like, hey, yo, like, thank you for that, but, um, wherever you go, I go. Like, don't, don't trap me here. Just let me come with you and be a part of whatever's going on. Yeah, because he's like, I gotta go, I gotta go do a thing. And then she's like, uh, but take me with you. It was like, um, he's like, should I put down— she's like, no, but really, I'm gonna go with you. You can't leave me here. Please don't leave me here. Yeah. And is that when he takes her to Velaris? I think it happens fast after that. Yeah, yeah, that's when he— she ends up in Velaris. Here's how I imagine it. It's this beautiful, quaint city that has like mom-and-pop shops and like restaurants and shopping, and there's a whole artist quarter, and there's happiness and laughter and families and like the

11:31 happiest— it's like Disney World. The happiest place on earth is Velaris. And she finds out that this is the place Rhysand has been keeping safe and hidden for a very long time, that he has gone to extreme lengths to make sure nobody knows where it is or that it even exists. any longer to keep everybody in it safe. And she kind of like, I think, questions like, damn, if you could have done that, if you could do that for this place, why didn't you do it for others as well? And I think he's just like, yo, I would do it again. Like, this, this was the reach I had, this was what I could do, and I would do it again. Because his— right, his inner circle is there. Yes. And that was like his home.

12:16 And the fact that he was able to keep this hidden from Amaretto for 50 fucking years was amazing. Yeah, he like wiped it out of everybody's memory before she took his powers. Like, I wanted to go live in Polaris. And I feel like that's Rhysand's way of letting her in as his mate, right? Like, I'm gonna let you into this really safe place for me because he's giving her a chance. I think like he's like, okay, if she's gonna be part of my court, I want her to know this stuff. I want to be able to trust her. Um, he also shares with her like he's, he's, I guess from the beginning has told her he wants her to help him. He needs her for help because he knows that there's a war coming. The King of Hybern is gearing up to fuck up the human realm and like just all on war. He wants to be the leader of all. And so Rhysand needs Feyre's help and prep for when that happens.

13:17 And so he gives her a choice again, like, if you want to be a part of my court, you need to meet my court before you decide. Let this be part of your decision. Yeah, he want— he wants her to be 100% sure and certain. She decides to send the letter to Tamlin to say, hey, yo, homie, I'm never coming back. Like, fuck off, dude, I'm not coming back. She meets the rest of Rhysand's court, which are the other characters in this series. We meet Azriel, Cassian, we already knew Mor, and then Amren. They meet at like a family dinner, and so she gets to see Rhysand be himself, like guard down. This is his inner circle.

14:02 They're exchanging stories of how they all met. That's when we learned that Cassian beat the shit out of Rhysand for his clothes. But we also learned that Rhysand's mother was a kind woman who saw that Cassian didn't really have a warm home and took him and Azriel in as other kids essentially and took care of them. So they become like this brother, like these brothers to each other. And Cassian is like this brute strength Illyrian warrior, and Azriel is also, um, another brother of Rhysand, but like mysterious and quiet and observant. And it was like his chosen family, because family doesn't have to be blood.

14:45 It can be the people in our, in our life that can be family also. Mm-hmm. And Amren is like this beautiful person, but also like a creature, maybe? We don't really know what Amren is. She don't eat food, she eats people. She's a tiny little hot tamale. It's fine. She, she's another fucking badass. I would really— this is not a nice— okay, yeah, so I would really, if I was I think Amren would be my speed. Like, I would let her do mean things to me and I'd be okay with it. I'd be like, yes please, may I have another?

15:28 Another and another. I've been so, so disrespectful. I need to be course corrected. I've been a bad girl. Please take care of me. I'm so naughty. But yeah, because she's just this tiny little feisty Like, out of this world. Yeah, like you don't know. There's layers. There's onion layers. That's what it is. We don't know who or what she is. We just know she likes like warm lamb's blood or something. She's got glowing eyes, but she's fucking sexy. Lamb blood and sheep's blood, because that's what it is. Sheep's blood is so much more pure. That's what it is. No, the baby. The baby. Yeah, the baby sheep, the lambs. The babies. I love though that immediately they treat Farrah as like a human being with choices, with powers, with a story. They want to know who she is, get to know her. They're asking her questions like, yo, I think Cassian's like, yo, I heard you fucking made a bone trap for this fucking worm that was chasing you. Like, what the hell? Like, I mean, they're immediately Yeah. Kind of joking and teasing and accepting her into the inner fold. And she is like, whoa, like, there's people that care.

16:50 And she wants to learn their story as much as they want to learn hers. And she makes the choice then and there, okay, I'm gonna fucking do this. I'm gonna be a part of this court. Teach me all the things. And Rhysand has quote unquote, like, tests. Like, he has things he needs her to do to begin this road to helping them. Is this where, like, G says that there's all the manipulation that's happening? Is this, like, where you feel, like, so much of the manipulation? I, I did it. I felt that probably right up until, like, chapter Like maybe 50. And then I saw the other side of it. I saw all this manipulation, and I, I knew that they needed her powers for the greater good, but I felt like they were using her for that.

17:51 Yeah. And, you know, and then in an edgy kind of way, you You know what I mean? Uh, like, I felt like, um, Rosanne and more maybe Cassian also, that they, they knew how powerful she was and that there's this endgame, right? Like, where we got this whole endgame towards the end of the book, but they needed her powers in order to see that endgame come to fruition, but you don't see that right in the beginning. You see that more towards the end of the book. Did that answer your question? Yeah. No, I feel like that he does manipulate her. And I feel like when she calls him out on it, that he's just like, yeah, I needed you to do these things.

18:48 And in order to get you to do these things, I told you what you needed to know so that you could get through them. The, the tip, quote unquote. Yeah, dude, like, just get through the things. And then she's like, oh yeah, no, fuck you, I'm not interested in that. You tell me everything. And he's like, fine. And yet he still does it like 1 or 2 more times. Yeah, the, the very first, I guess, like, he— they share with her that, like, um, do you remember Amaretto would wear the ring with the eyeball? And it belongs to this guy. I can't remember what the— Durian. Durian, yes. And so, uh, Rhysand says, hey, we never found Durian's ring. Turns out that eyeball is missing somewhere. We believe the King of Hybern has it. We don't know why he has it. He also has like a necklace of this guy's finger or something, right? So they're like, he's got these 2 parts for this dead guy.

19:41 Um, we need to figure it out. We're going to the Bone Carver, and he wants Feyre to go because Feyre is going to give— well, Rhysand grabbed the bone that delivered the killing shot from the pit that she built in book 1. So he wants to bring Feyre, kind of to your point of manipulation and shit, because Feyre is unique, something the Bone Carver has never seen, and has this bone, right? So they go there to deliver the goods and ask questions. They want— and the Bone Carver won't talk to them anymore. So they get there and it was hella fucking creepy. The Bone Carver is a creepy motherfucker who can appear differently to different people. And to Feyre, the Bone Carver appears as a little boy that Feyre seems to find familiar, doesn't quite know where. This fucked me up in the— later fucked me up so hard. Give me the foreshadowing, Nacho.

20:41 Oh, foreshadowing! Yeah. Fucked me up so hard. And I think to Rhysand it appeared as Durian or something like that, some other character. I think so, yeah. And in the interaction with the Bone Carver, because obviously they're there with an end goal to figure out why does this king have these 2 things, what is his plan, what is he gonna do, it is revealed then something that you brought up earlier, Nacho, which, um, The Bone Carver is asking her, hey, what did it feel like to die? Where did you go? What did you see? What'd you do? Right. Yeah. No, I think it's— yes, great. Yes. And so she is describing what it felt like to die. I heard my neck snap. I knew I was dying. I was falling into this black pit, whatever, whatever. He's like, what'd you see? Nothing. It was darkness. It was black. There was nobody there. Then she goes, but I felt a tug. There was a thread. I knew home was on the other side of that. And so that kind of kept her, I guess, from passing fully, right? So we get to hear that part. Rhysand looks incredibly troubled to hear Feyre sharing this information, but nonetheless, they get what they need from the Bone Carver and they leave. The Weaver— side note, one of my favorite horror movies when I was a little kid was, um, Texas Chainsaw Massacre with Leatherface.

22:00 So when I read The Weaver, that's what I imagined. So The Weaver is this lovely lady who is in the woods. She's a fucking creepy bitch, man. You know what? It was like Hansel and Gretel. Yeah, for me it was like a cross of Hansel and Gretel and Rumpelstiltskin. Thank you. Okay, okay. I went full Texas Chainsaw Massacre. She's like weaving shit with like human hair. And her house is made out of bone and flesh. Yeah. Gross. And she's singing some creepy-ass song the whole time that she's sitting there, like, weaving, like, with her foot. And, like, the Audible version of this, the graphic audio, phenomenal, phenomenal.

22:44 You hear, like, the spinning of the wheel and, like, it is— it's so fucking good. So, yeah, Rhysand takes Feyre to a character called the Weaver. Because he needs to test if Feyre can sense magical objects and find them based on what she's sensing. And the object that she is searching for is Rhysand's mother's ring. Now, Rhysand's mother gave the Weaver the ring to keep safe, and— So he doesn't waste it. So he doesn't waste it. Uh, we later find out that that ring, it would only ever be found by a suitable mate for Rhysand. The mate would have to go through this and find the ring. So, but she doesn't know that at the time, but everybody else literally does. Because once she makes it up that chimney with the hair and the grease, that was like disgusting. And I was like— I have— I was like, this bitch gonna take me on this roller coaster of a ride right now. This is messy.

23:54 Rhysand delivers Feyre to the weaver because he can't go inside because the weaver knows him. So he's like, Feyre, weaver doesn't know you. You got to go in there and find this fucking object. Feyre goes in sneaking around, trying to be quiet because the weaver's blind or something. I don't know. Oh, yeah, super blind. Don't make a noise. She needs to be incredibly quiet. She finds the object, turns out it's a ring. She puts it in her pocket and now she's trying to leave and she notices the weaver has stopped spinning. singing. She's like, fuck it, I gotta book it for this door. Goes to run for the door, the weaver's like, nah, you're not going anywhere. Who's in my house? Yes. So Feyre sees one option to get out of this house. I gotta go through this hair roof. And Feyre like lights the weaver's house on fire. Yes. Climbs her way out of this flesh and hair and bone cottage.

24:45 And then goes meets up with Rosanne, who's just like chilling, lounging on a tree. He's like, hey, how's it going? In the meantime, she's got like fucking, fucking cooked flesh in her hands. Cooked flesh. She does like super nimble fey shit though. She gets off and she's like dancing to like walking to the end of one branch and jumping onto another branch. She's like really like fully embracing like her fey like Magical spot. Finally, Sam, where the fuck is he? It's like the first time that she like spreads her wings a little bit. Yeah, but what I, I love too is like when she got stuck in the chimney. Oh, I was drinking when you were bringing that up. Finish that, finish that thought.

25:26 Why do you love it so much? She— because like she let her power come out. Like she like battled her way out of this really tight spot and she, she didn't Now she realizes like how strong she is. Like she like busted this motherfucker up. Even though she was like covered in fucking grease and red hair. And the hair. So much for me. I was like— Can I tell you my favorite line that also made me gag immediately, but I fucking— I appreciated the shit out of it. So they winnow back And Cassian, Amren, they're all waiting to see like, oh my God, what happened, right?

26:08 And Feyre gets there and the first words out of— out of Amren's mouth says, Feyre, you smell like barbecue. Yes. Can I lick you? Do you have any sauce to go with that? I was like, I fucking love how gross that is, dude. That shit was Doesn't she like completely start throwing up realizing like what she's covered in? Like Feyre's like, she's also pissed because I don't think up until this point they knew that she got the ring. She like slams the ring down like, why the fuck did you have me going there for this shit? And then Cassian's like, oh fuck, she found it. She's on fire.

26:53 I don't even think they realized what they— what she was going in there for or what the purpose of the, the trip was until she opened it, or he opened it, and it was the ring from the mom. And they were— it seemed to me like they were all just like, oh, you had her do that? And now, oh, double oh. Like, they're putting things together. Like, they already know that they're mates. because of how Rhysand came back from— was it Calanmai or something like that? No, from Under the Mountain. Under the Mountain. As soon as he came back, remember, he was freed and he— Under the Mountain is when he realizes, oh shit, this is my mate. He goes back to the Night Court. And as he arrives there, he says, she's my mate. That's the first words he says. And then they're like, oh shit. Oh yeah, okay. I do think you're right though. Like, I think everybody starts to put double it together. Like, oh, it was the ring. Oh, the ring means this. Oh shit, that's his mate. You know what I mean? Like, they're all like, but nobody's saying it to her. Um, but now Rhys knows that she can sniff out magical objects, and that was what he needed to know from the High Fae, from the High Lords.

28:07 Yeah. Um, I think shortly after that is when he— the subject of Ianthe comes up again, and he shares the memory he has of Ianthe with Feyre because she's like, why don't you like this chick. Like, you fucking hate her. Like, what's going on? Because she's a psycho fucking bitch. That's why. Yeah. And he shares with her this really disturbing memory of how Ianthe basically was trying to fuck Rhysand for his power. She showed up naked in her— in his bed. Mm-hmm. This was even before Under the Mountain too. Yep. He, uh, shows her the memory. She's trying to fuck Rhysand. He's like, no, no, no. Um, she, I think, touches him and— or reaches to touch him or something like that, and he destroys her hand with magic and like breaks her hand. After she gets off the bed and she tries to be like, oh, but you really want to do this, and he's like, no, bitch, I really don't. Don't touch me. Yeah, don't touch me, don't touch another male of my court. Like breaks her hand with magic. Brutalizes her hand, yeah. Which is foreshadowing for book 3. Foreshadowing!

29:16 After that, they take a trip to Feyre's family's home. So fucking wild. Their goal is to convince Nesta and, um, Elain that— to let them basically use their house for a neutral meeting spot. So Rhysand wants to meet with the queens. So during, uh, Farrah's stay with Rhysand, he lets her know that war is coming and that, uh, that there's this cauldron in Hybern, and that there's this book of secrets, a book of magic, right? But the book is split in 2, so one half of the book is in Immortal Land. The other half of the book is in Mortal Land. Summer Court.

30:13 Summer Court. So one in Summer Court and one in the human world. But it's in this, like, castle or estate with these high queens, but it's, it's got all these spells around it so they can't get into this. So what they want to do is use Feyre's father's estate now to be like their headquarters so that they can liaison between these, these queens and everything else. I like that during this scene we kind of see some sparks fly between Nesta and Cassian. You know, there's that thin line. 5 books later.

30:55 Um, but he— I love that he gave her shit. Oh, like, I loved it. You let her go out there and hunt. Like, fuck yes, Cassian, give Nesta some shit. Um, I love that we kind of see a little bit of a spark between Elain and Azriel. Yes. I thought that was pretty interesting. I kind of wish that Cassian and Nesta had gone out to the backyard, fought it out, and, and just fight it out. Me too. Like, like angry sex. That would have been fucking fantastic. Mm-hmm. During this time, I think Rhys and Feyre are still training, and he takes her out into the woods and he uses her as bait to trap the adder. Oh yeah. And during this scene is when we get to see— obviously Rhysand shows up fucking immediately, you know, renders this adder helpless, but it's the first time we see Feyre get pissed with Rhysand and she's like, oh yeah, you're gonna fucking use me as bait, bitch.

31:58 And she winnows. I guess she likes that about Rhysand. Yeah. And he keeps like, she's going after him and he's dodging her left and right and he's loving it. You know, he's like, come at me. And she starts to winnow. And finally, and winnowing is like, you know, moving from one space to the next within like a second. And she's chasing him and that's how she's able to catch him and like pin him down. And he's like, okay, okay, okay. But that's, I think, to your earlier point, Nacho, where she's like, if you're gonna do this, just tell me. Let me be a part of that decision. Don't, don't do it without me knowing. Right. So he's like, okay. After that, he shares with her the vision of what they do to the Adder, because I think she asks, like, what the fuck happened? So he is able to let her see the memories through his eyes and hear his thoughts during that time too. All of it is basically to say they're getting closer with one another and Are you eating carrot cake? I was hungry.

32:50 I'm having some cinnamon roll. It's huge. Listen, I'll go— I'll turn my, my video off. No, no, hell no. I want to watch it fumbling down your chest. It's probably about 5 inches wide. She needs a heim lick. She's fine, she's fine. Nobody's getting a heiny lick today. A heiny lick? Hey, unless you're Tamlin. Hey, once for Tamlin, twice for Rhysand. Are you good? Give us a thumbs up if you can breathe. All right, speaking of cinnamon rolls, bring us back in, bring us back in. Uh, so yeah, after they do the adder thing, he shares his memories. They're getting closer, he's trusting her more.

33:38 They return to Valaris, and that was— that I think is the first time they kind of start to They all, as a team, go out to dinner. Half the team breaks off and like goes dancing at a bar and shit. And then it basically leaves Feyre and Rhysand. And they start walking at night, and Velaris, and talking, and essentially showing vulnerability with one another. And I think that's when the feelings kind of are like full on in hyper gear. After that is when she's like, She goes and starts training with Cassian. It's one of my favorite scenes, I think, with Cassian in this book, is he's holding— like, this is how I envision it— he's holding a punching bag and Feyre is just like fucking wailing on this punching bag. And in that, she's releasing like these emotions and these feelings of like what she thinks of herself in hurting those faeries under the mountain. And like, she's like finally confronting these thoughts and these emotions that she's been ignoring this whole time. Yeah.

34:40 And it's with Cassian, and her fists start to turn into fire, and she's just punching through this bag. And when she finally breaks and is crying and sobbing, Cassian's there saying, it's okay, I'm okay, I'm okay, you haven't hurt me yet. Yeah, like, he's just there for her. Like, he's like, I'm here, girl. Like, you need me, keep going, keep punching. And Rhysand is somewhere else on the field training, but I think can feel through that bond like, oh shit, like something's going on. And he's right there by her side and he covers her with his wings and lets her just cry it out. And he's also naked from the belly button up and so slickery. Slickery.

35:21 I like it when we're slickery. Yummy. After that is the other trial. They decide they need to go to the summer court because that is where the other half of the book is rumored to be.